This week’s underground hip-hop track of the week is Rugged N Raw’s Life Purpose, off his new album “Truth Serum.” Life Purpose is a poetic lyrical track that deals with the untimely death of RNR’s pops, a teenage abortion, and dealing with his mother’s miscarriage. Click below to listen to the track:

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And be sure to follow along with the lyrics after the break.

[Verse 1]
I thought that I lost any reason to live/
Dead dad late November ‘round that season to give/
Now the doctor said too much fluid in the lungs/
There was absolutely nothing they could do but pull the plug/
I was on the verge of growing up, becoming a man/
I guess God needed him more and scooped him up with his hands/
Now don’t get me wrong – I’m grateful for the time spent/
But I begged to the lord, ‘Don’t take him – not yet!’/
On one hand it’s motivation, find my dream and get it/
But then again forget it, I can’t tell him that I did it/
He won’t get to be a grandpa, see me finish college/
Never saw the rough edges smoothed out and polished/
I worry sometimes the goal I’m facing is wrong/
Then I cry because I’m sorry that I’m taking too long/
Finding happiness without pop very hard pursuing/
All I want is a sign that he can see what I’m doing/

[Verse 2]
I had the chance to be a dad but I ain’t accept it/
My girl aborted – we didn’t get protected/
All my life growing up I believed it was wrong/
Little human beings die and these teens are at fault/
Despite scares, I thought it couldn’t happen to me/
But I knew soon as I bust little man was conceived/
Paternal instinct is real, it weighed on my conscience/
Fears came true, next day my girl’s nauseous/
Can’t imagine her grief, she carried it around/
The joy and pain of parenthood, sadly lived it now/
I constantly see an image of his smiling face/
I’m ashamed to be alive, I swear I need a hiding place/
Fuck life ‘cause I wish I died instead/
And every baby I come across I find regret/
’Til the point I wanna place knives inside my head/
Then once karma sees that I paid the price, I’m set/

[Verse 3]
For what it’s worth I’m still glad for opportunity/
To be on this earth and see what it got to do for me/
Little know fact in my heart it’s tragic/
Five months before conception, mom had a miscarriage/
Part of me hurts for this seed that should’ve been/
But the selfish I knows otherwise I couldn’t live/
I’m a plan B – just a consolation prize/
A chip’s on my shoulder to not let fate decide/
How my life is going to go – I’m the pilot steering/
I walk around straight faced though inside I’m tearing/
I’m constantly reminded that life is not promised/
I’ma stop moping and be happy I got it/
At times I’m sorry that I saw my daddy go/
But that’s a role model I can say I gladly know/
The mistakes I made whether savage or thin/
I just got to make sure that they don’t happen again/